DAYNE Beams is unsure if he wants the details of his darkest day to be public or not.
But, for a greater good, now they are.
By telling this story of his rock-bottom moment in Last Time I Cried, Beams hopes he can help others in similar situations.
"There was a moment where ... I can't remember to be honest because I was concussed in the incident ... but I crashed my car deliberately," Beams said.
"I didn't want it to be fatal, I didn't want to die but it was a cry, it was a massive cry ... I needed help."
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There are other things that were happening in Beams' life at the time that he's not comfortable with sharing yet, but he might get to those when he's ready.
"There's a lot of things that aren't true that have been said about me," Beams said.
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"There's no doubt I had some addiction issues and there will be a time when I go into them and try to help people in depth, but at the moment I'm clean."
Reflecting on it now, Beams thinks it was a "selfish" thing to do, but at the time he didn't know where to turn.
"I just didn't know how to get out of the s*** that I was in," Beams said.
"I feel like you need to hit rock bottom to go back up and for me that was the lowest I got.
"I don't know why I felt like that. That was what I needed to do, but it just was at the time.
"The thought of putting my kids and my wife through that makes me feel sick."
His advice for anyone suffering from mental health issues is simple: talk it out, but if you can't, do something for someone else as it will help you feel better.
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