"I WENT about it the wrong way and take full responsibility for what I did."
Remorseful Gold Coast forward Charlie Dixon has spoken for the first time since breaking a player-imposed alcohol ban, admitting he should have handled things differently.
Dixon and Gold Coast teammate Jack Martin drank wine on the eve of the Suns' round nine match against Hawthorn and were suspended for one match each. Dixon told AFL.com.au he was disappointed in himself and took full responsibility for his actions.
He said drinking a glass of wine had become a match-eve ritual he developed during the pre-season to help him sleep better.
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However, Dixon's reason didn't wash with the Suns' leaders, who in consultation with the entire playing group agreed on a zero tolerance policy to alcohol prior to the bye.
Dixon broke the pact just three days after it was initiated and admitted he should have handled things differently.
"I should have (mentioned the pre-game routine) in the group when we had that discussion," he said. "I was unsure what the reaction would be, but I still should have asked the question.
"I was definitely not trying to hide it, if I was I would have paid my room bill.
"I'm disappointed in myself and would have loved to be out there with the boys on the weekend.
"It really hurt me to be up in the stands and to let my teammates down."
Dixon said he would consult the leadership group, coaches and medical staff this week on whether he could resume drinking a glass of wine as part of his match-eve preparation. He said he would prefer to keep it "in house".
Harley Bennell, Brandon Matera, Trent McKenzie and Danny Stanley also copped one-match bans one month ago for breaking a club rule of not drinking inside six days prior to a match.
Dixon is the first of the six players suspended to speak.
One of the Suns' founding players, he denied there was a lack of respect towards new coach Rodney Eade.
"I have the utmost respect for our leadership group, especially our coach," Dixon said.
"We're going through change at the moment and setting in some rules and going through change. We're setting standards. It was my fault, 100 per cent I take all responsibility for it."
Dixon is out of contract at season's end and is reportedly on the radar of a number of clubs, including the Brisbane Lions and Fremantle. He was reluctant to be drawn on his preferred home for 2016 and beyond.
"That's up to my manager. I'm here to play footy," he said.
"I've been here since day one. I was one of the first signings so it means a lot to me. I can't really say too much else to that."